My GACKT Fandom

Gackt is a very famous JRock/JPop musician. He's the former vocalist of Malice Mizer and started his solo career in 1995. I you want to know more, please Google him and you will know more and it will hit you how famous he really is.

I have been a huge Gackt fan since I was at the age of 4. It all started when my brother who is 12 years older but I am no longer in good terms with was in his JRock phase at that time. He used to listen to Japanese music really loudly everyday and he always played Gackt's debut song "Mizerables" which can be heard below.

My brother was also a big Gackt fan back then. Eventually I came to LOVE that song to the point I was eager to hear my brother play it on his loud radio. What stood out to me most was actually his voice, I love his voice immensely. He also played various other songs which I also fell in love with because I recognized the voice in those songs. My brother also owns 2 posters of Gackt that is still in the back of his wardrobe door that I am eager to tear out and claim as my own. Proof:

Actually tearing them out will be quite a task since they've been there for years now. Anyways, Gackt's songs were unlike any I have heard on the radio. I then discovered that the songs which I loved were sang by the man in THAT poster! I then fell even more in love with him because he was what I naturally presumed as "really handsome" and since then my taste in music and my taste in men have been heavily influenced by Gackt-sama.

Hence the reason why the music they play on the radio nowadays make my ears bleed and why I have always been single.

When I was 12 and started discovering Google and Youtube, I saw Gackt on Animax (I no longer watch Animax) and he was performing "Returner" which you can listen to by clicking the video above. I fell in love with him all over again because that was the first time I heard him sing a live performance. It was also a relatively "new" song to me because until that time I only listened to the older Gackt songs. Then it struck me that I could use the internet as a way to find out more about Gackt.

I now know every single Gackt song that has ever been released the recent single being "Graffiti" which is above, read a translated version of his biography that's titled "Jihaku", watched *most* of the commercials he appeared in via Youtube, has a whole file filled with Gackt's pictures, following him on Twitter and know many random facts about Gackt i.e. what kind of underwear he prefers to wear. Unfortunately I am not a part of his official fanclub "Dears" because the registration is all in Japanese and I have still not yet mastered the language.

Fun Gackt facts that I thought I should share: Gackt is also Genesis in Final Fantasy Crisis Core and his song "Redemption" is for the game. He starred in Moon Child alongside with Hyde, guitarist of L'Arc en Ciel and Wang Lee Hom. He knows Japanese, Mandarin and English. He stars in the movie "Bunraku". He is MEGA HOT AND SEXY AND FUNNY AND HAS PERFECT TEETH! Here's one of Gackt's ever so cute/funny commercials: 

Yes, I do have the candy that he's advertising for in that commercial. My favorite flavor is the honey lemon flavor which coincidentally is the flavor Gackt's always eating in all e-ma commercials. One warning though, they can be really sour so don't put more than 1 into your mouth. Anyways, no matter how many other artists I come to love and no matter how crazy I seem about the current love, my number one will always be GACKT.

Poem: Fun Asylum

I'm sitting in a white room
A nice padded white room
Wearing a white jacket
My arms wrapped around myself

Laughing hysterically
My hair's a mess
Drooling from my mouth
I'm having so much fun

Today they drilled my head
Yesterday I had a cold bath
The other day I was electrocuted
Who the heck am I?

I don't know where I've been
I don't know how I got here
I don't know who you are
I don't know who I am

It's the fun asylum
I'm sitting here thinking
"Oh how fun!"

Today I bit her face
Yesterday I bit his hand
The other day I ate their toes
Are you friend or are you foe?

I'm having so much fun
In this madness that is me
I scratch and I bite
I howl and I scream
Being in the fun asylum
Is so much fun

Just a little something I wrote after I finished doing my History Paper 2 test on Monday. Had an extra piece of paper and I still had a lot of time and the thought of writing about an asylum appealed to me at that time so I wrote this. I already thought about writing the prequel on Tuesday morning. It's in my head now, but I'm saving it for next time.

Only 2 subjects left and Trials will be over. SPM will be starting in 2 months. I don't feel particularly nervous or scared but I am quite excited because my life as a high school student will soon end. The fact that I will soon enter society overwhelms me. I will be glad once I leave this school because I hate it a lot. It's filled with plenty of two-faced, noisy, gossipy bitches and I'm happy that I won't have to deal with them anymore.

I'm sure in the future I will be facing plenty more obstacles but hey, isn't it part of life to overcome these things? So for now, that is all.

My Not-So-Happy Birthday

Lately, things at home have been out of control. It's been making me feel so suffocated. I wish I could just escape but I am fully aware that running away is never a solution. Yesterday it was my birthday. Yes, I am now officially 17 years old.

I always hated my birthday. Simply because every person who knew when my birthday was would suddenly forget about it on the very day and also bad things keep on happening on my birthday. I guess I'm just cursed. Even on my 13th birthday I had a party at my house and in the end only 1 person came! HUMBUG!

I spent the entire day in school staring off into space. Only 3 of my friends wished me Happy Birthday. The rest kind of just ignored it. However, I did get many wishes on Facebook. Many thanks for that! Guess it's because Facebook has birthday notifications, still they made my day.

Didn't celebrate it this year because my mom's becoming superstitious. Bad things have been happening lately to my family and since these two days are Hungry Ghost Festival according to the Chinese calendar my mom's afraid something else might happen to me if we celebrate it. I don't really believe in this stuff because I'm simply too logical, but whatever.

I really wanted to get out of this house so I asked many of my friends out to karaoke. Unfortunately they all declined. I haven't been to karaoke for a year now. The last time was last year on my birthday with two of my buddies. How I miss going karaoke, there's just something about it that makes it so much fun!

Guess that's all for now.